Wedding Wednesday: Love Weight+Diet+Dress

When I was single, I never understood how people (not just the women) could gain 20 pounds once they got in a relationship. I always thought to myself, 'how could they let themselves go?'. I mean do you no longer care about yourself or how your significant views you?

Yes I was "that" single person.

Well now, I am EATING those words and they taste AWFUL.

For the first five months of our relationship, we lived apart, three hours to be exact. So my weekly routine did not change. Truth be told, I really didn't have a routine, I didn't cook dinner and I did whatever I wanted to. And I looked like this.....

Legs for DAYS and no fat bat-wings when my arms move!

Fast forward a year and insert 10 pounds. (I'm not quite sure if it is 10 pounds, all my clothes still fit, just not in the same way and my stomach is gross). I cook dinner at least five nights a week. I no longer exercise unless Steven is with me, and if my fat tush wants a #1 from Chick Fil A, I eat it. If I want awful fattening food and 1/2 a bottle of wine in one sitting I have it. Steven swears that I look just as beautiful as the day we met. And those words right there, are why I have not done anything about my weight.

There has been a lot of this going on......

.....and now I look like this.

Yep, there I am in all my fat glory. I though that maybe if I got real with y'all on here, I would get real with myself. My measurements are as follows:

waist - 31.5"

thighs - 21"

hips - 38"

arms - 11.5" 

Monday started the change in our eating and exercising habits. I don't want to call it a diet, because truly both of us want to change our lifestyle. I am not the only one who has gained weight, my sweet, sweet man has too, oh and at his yearly....he had "high" cholesterol. Insert fiance guilt as I am the one cooking the meals and putting the plate in front of him. 

I shared my measurements but I do not know how much I weigh. We don't own a scale and personally I don't want to own one. Scales and I are not exactly the best of friends and we have an unhealthy history. And weight is only a number! I want to feel good in my clothes, feel even better naked and be in the best health of my life when I walk down the isle in November! In sickness and in health!

My wedding dress came in yesterday! Six weeks early! Whoooooooooooo! I chose my dress in January, and truth be told, when I look at the pictures from that day, I felt skinner then than I do now. My mom and I are going to pick it up next week, she also knows that I am trying to loose weight. She asked me what I would do if it fit perfectly.....I told her that my alterations lady better pull out her needles because I would be DAMNED if I stayed fat just so that my wedding dress fit. Now you might read that and think that I am ridiculous, but I came in under budget for my dress, so even if the alterations were $500-700, it will not affect the bottom line/budget. Maybe I am being a little ridiculous, but I do not want to carry around extra weight. We're only getting married once, and our wedding photos will be forever and I don't want to look back and regret that I did not look my best. Not to mention, I don't want to look like I am flying away in my pictures because my arms could double as bat wings right now. Jiggle Jiggle y'all!

And so, ladies (and gents if you're out there) here is one of the most brutally honest posts on GG that you will ever read. Here's to getting healthy, taking better care of ourselves and looking beautiful on 11-14-15!